Life Keeps Moving Forward

 Well this blog has been abandoned for a long time now. Life somehow seems to overtake us or posting to web sites just loses its appeal or we lose the energy to keep it going.

Some perspective now many years later...

So I have stopped crossdressing since I last posted?

•  No I still enjoy dressing up and love the feel of pantyhose and when I can add other femme articles of clothing I just feel complete. I do get a real sense of emotional relief or an escape from reality where my femme form does not have any of the normal real life stresses.

Have I come to accept myself better and not be so scared of being labeled a crossdresser?

• Yes and no.  Yes, I have learned to accept that dressing up and being a crossdresser is just part of my basic DNA. I can go thru periods of not wearing or dressing up but it always comes back. Part of me is Jaime and will always be Jaime, there is just no changing that. In that respect I have come to accept that this is part of me and its okay.  
• The No part is in reaction to the acceptance that I get from my spouse. She tolerates my pantyhose fetish, maybe partially accepts as she knows I like to crossdress. However, she has never really seen me dressed up in person nor does she have the desire to be with me when I am presenting in femme form. She wants me to keep this part of me hidden, secret and private. So that part still leaves me apprehensive and I am not able to truly share who I am and what I enjoy with most of my real family and friends. I only get to be the whole me when I am online but hiding behind a screen name. 

Have my attitudes changed regarding who I am because I like to dress up?

• I would have to admit that what I have tried and what I fantasize about now is drastically different than it was when I was a young man or even a middle aged man. I have noticed that my sexuality continues to expand and grow more liberal with the passing of age. Things that I would not have considered before now seem exciting or enticing to try.  Maybe we are like wine in that we get better with age. My femme self has definitely grown and is open to new experiences for sure.

Does any of this even make sense?

• Probably not but its who I am. I am not hurting anyone or breaking any laws, so I might as well enjoy who I have become on this journey in life.

Acceptance

Well it has been some time since I have posted anything on my blog. Like many, you start with good intentions of maintaining a presence and then you sort of fall offline. Well that is me too. For those who have cursed or called me names, I guess that is deserved for having neglected this blog.

I still love to wear my pantyhose and try to do that often. That is one thing that has not fallen off the radar screen. However, my picture taking has waned and I sometimes wonder if that is all that people really want is just some pictures. Hell I love to see pictures too, but I do not post them here much anymore.

My new bride knew about my love of tights and pantyhose before we were married. We have had some great pantyhose sex together. However after having been married for over 4 years now, the pantyhose sex is less often. Some of that is probably because I had the bachelor pad where there were no kids around so we could be loud and play. Now we still have kids that refuse to grow up and live on their own, which happens to put a crimp in the fun sex. I still love her more each day it's just not as wild as it once was.

In the meantime, she has learned about my crossdressing habit as well. It was an unintentional accident as she found some pictures that were not completely deleted across all devices. At first she thought I was having an affair with another woman. So I had to come clean and just confess that it was me dressed en femme instead. I was afraid she was going to end our relationship, instead she has been great at just accepting me. She will let me wear pantyhose/tights to bed when I want and she will let me dress up as long as I do it in private. In addition, she has no desire to see me dressed up so I am trying to respect her wishes. She does not want our family or friends knowing about my crossdressing. So in some respects she is now hiding my secret like I used to hide from the world.

I love her for being understanding. Of course a crossdresser always wants more. I felt like a great weight was lifted from my shoulders when I was able to finally share my secrets with my best friend. However, I have been trying to avoid the major mistake that we all tend to make once our secret is out and that is trying to push my luck too fast and do too much right away. The trick has been trying to go very slowly with her and reassure her that I am still the man she married. I just have a softer side at times that needs to be expressed.

I still do not believe she would approve of my online presence. I can understand that need or want to keep things private, frankly I have kept this side of my life pretty private for many many years. If she ever does read this blog or find some pictures online, I want her to know that it was a creative outlet at times to get things off my chest. Other times it was a narcissistic need to be seen and create an illusion. Many stories are fantasies and as I have told many, fantasies can be quite fun and not all fantasies have to come true to still be fun. My beautiful wife you are my living fantasy, thank you.

We walk a fine line balancing our public lives with our other private pantyhose / tights / crossdress lives behind closed doors or behind anonymous ids online. To those who face this journey like me, I wish you well. To the spouses of those like me, remember we love you dearly and chose you and want you and love you more each day.

I have tried to change many times and failed over many years. I finally have come to realize and accept that I cannot change who I am. I am a guy and I love tights. I love my wife. I love my family. I love to crossdress at times. I love pantyhose. I love high heels. I love to dress en femme. I love to be a straight, married guy, doing guy things too. I am complicated. I am complex. I am compassionate. I am passionate. I am many things. And I am no longer trying to change or deny who I am. I choose who to share with and I choose when to maintain my privacy. I am who I am.

Who are you?

Dress and Panty Shaper

Was going thru some of my old folders and found some pictures that I took a year ago. Can't believe how time flies, but here are some new photos. There are times when I just love to put on my tights and dress up. And then there are those times when I also get the camera out and take a few pictures too. I am sure those who dress up can relate to the scenario and the feelings.

In this photo set I am wearing a short sleeved white dress with black stripes, a black sweater, layered grey tights from Merona, a panty shaper, and some peep toe cfm pumps.

I was getting rather horny towards the end and needed something to drink. Has anyone else tried this? It can be quite fun and tasty too ;-)

As always would love to get your comments.

xo Jaime

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Little Black Skirt and Sheer Top

I recently took some pictures of a new outfit. Well the outfit is sort of new, let me explain... The wife was tossing this cute little black skirt, so I pulled it out of the donation bag and donated it to myself. Laughing, so now it's my new little black skirt and I love how it hugs my hips.  I borrowed the top from my wife, as this was her brand new sheer blouse.  She wears it with a cami underneath but I thought it looked better without the cami. What do you think?

So I decided to post some pictures of me modeling the "new" outfit which includes: two pairs of Leggs Sheer Energy STW suntan medium support pantyhose, the little black stretchy skirt, the new sheer blouse, a black padded bra, a necklace, and black peep toe 4" cfm wedge heels.

Would love to hear from you, please leave a comment.
xo Jaime

Suntan Hose and Black Dress

I took these pictures awhile ago and just found them again. Do you ever take pictures and then forget about them, or just get so busy that you forget to edit and post?

Well that is what happened to me. In fact I found a lot of those pictures, so hopefully I will get some more frequent posts updated here.

Below I have on Leggs Sheer Energy suntan pantyhose, layered of course :-) along with some cute black peep toe cfm pumps and a flowing little black dress. I love this particular black dress for how it hangs so freely. If you are outside and the wind is blowing, mmm it just feels so good. I don't remember the proper name but this dress flows and is very cute

As always, I would love to get your comments and I am usually at least good about replying back to you. Please share your thoughts, I really do like to know what you think.

 

After having some freedom in my flowing black dress, I could not resist putting on something a little more form fitting. I really do love the tight compressions provided by wearing multiple layers of pantyhose / tights. So I added a little black body shaper, I really think it could be worn as a little black dress by itself...laughing.

Of course all of those lovely compression feelings got me excited, as you can see...

Till it all ended with a nice sticky mess on my cfm peep toe pumps, mmmm!!

Bluegreen Dress

Have you ever woke up one morning and decided you wanted to dress like a beautiful secretary? Well I have.

There is just something pleasing about slipping into some thong panties, 2 pairs of Leggs Sheer Energy sheer to waist suntan pantyhose, a padded bra, a cute short sleeve bluegreen dress, a blue sweater, some makeup, a necklace and cfm open toe pumps...mmm. I love the feeling of the dress as it swishes against my pantyhose encased legs. And the click click sound of the heel on a tile floor is so sexy.

It is difficult to explain to those who have not tried this, but there is such a sensual feel to dressing up that I find liberating from my normal daily routine. It is fun. I hope you enjoy these pictures and leave some comments. I would love to hear from you.

Thanks, Jaime

 

 

 

And of course after having been dressed up and pretending, the naughty secretary had to cum out and play too.